Pondering~
Click.
Delete.
Click. Delete.
Click and delete.
When thoughts filled you up, when you don’t have a space for other things, when we cannot even think straight, we tend to do things on impulse. And yes, I deleted my posts.
I missed you.
Missing you.
You’re not going to know this post anyway.
You’re not going to put any interest in my blog.
Because I am insignificant to you and that you wouldn’t even notice my disappearance.
But I am thankful, because you’re still my dearest friend.
And after all this while, I still love you. As a friend, as a sister and as someone else who wanted you to reciprocate the love that I gave you. No, still giving it to you.
You were the best I ever had. And still you are.
When someone asked “why do I like you so much?”
I searched for every possibility why I like you, and I still cannot answer it.
Because I think I really like you.
I can’t find any reason.
You were right infront of me, why didn’t I notice you?
I should have notice that when we were on the phone almost every other night when I was with my ex-boyfriend.
I will never stop you from pursuing your happiness.
You should know that.
If you’re happy, I will be happy for you.
Even if you’re with my worst enemy.
I don’t care, I don’t even mind.
As long as you’re happy.
And as long as you’re going to stay with me like a buddy, I’ll be very happy.
And I will be. (:
Do you know another thing?
You taught me patience; you taught me why I shouldn’t be in a hurry when I do things.
I’m waiting. For you.
Again, for you.
You know I still do.
But I will move on; I know that we are impossible.
And the right one for me will eventually come, till then I won’t let prejudices get in my sight.
Perhaps then, you will be my friend, just my friend.
Nothing more.
P.S I won’t name your name out.
I respect your privacy.
